So I haven’t posted in quite some time. Looks like August 17th was my last post. I stopped not because I was getting lazy [I actually missed blogging], but because my life kept flipping upside down and around that it would’ve been a waste of my time. So I’ll give you a quick, and as dramaless update as possible on the last three months.
Everything in my life has changed, yet again. Eric and I broke up in late August. While yes, we’ve broke up a few times before, we’ve never been off three months. It’s been hard, but it is what it is.
We’re both selfish people and we want what’s best for ourselves. Undoubtedly for me, that was moving back to the eastside. I’ve been sure of that for some time now. My family is my number one support system and no matter what stupid mistakes I’ve made, or what I’ve needed, they’ve been there for me. They’ve always trusted me and haven’t stood in my way. Not once. I knew I had to come back home. I said for the longest time, “I’ll never move back there.” Well, here I am, and I feel better than ever. I haven’t had one panic attack in the month I’ve been here, and while sometimes I am lonely, I am happy.
This week, I celebrated my “one month” at WXYZ Channel 7. I am very happy, excited, and honored to be working at this station. Even though I am working with 20-30 year veterans in the 11th market, I feel respected. As one of my supervisors told me “you either fit here or you don’t.” I feel like I do. I know I’ll be able to continue to work my way up and I think I can end up doing great things for this station and for this market. You know, I took a year off from news, and I don’t think I regret it. But the reason is this, I’ve seen people get worn down and bitter with the business as they get older. But I think taking that time off now, and then showing up in a major market was enough to realize this is the business I was made for and I don’t want anything else. I’m good at it and I have a lot to give. And as one of my mentors said… and he knows who he is, “Sarah, stop being a fucking whackjob.” That’s the best advice I may have ever received. He went on to say I was wasting my talent, and while that’s not great to hear, it is a type of compliment. I was wasting it, and now that I’m using it again, I feel so good.
Now, taking that advice didn’t necessarily come easy, I still had a few hurdles to jump, but that was a turning point. I knew I wanted that job and I knew I wanted to get to the eastside… two months after that, I got it. Go-getter Willets was back.
But putting yourself first, means putting others behind you. I’m sure it’s meant to be, that all these hurdles and rollercoasters were for a reason. It seems like I could’ve gotten to where I am with a little less pain, but I made it through, and I’m glad I’m here.
BUT…. The most exciting part… I’m kind of living the life of my role model Mary Richards (Mary Tyler Moore). She was engaged, they broke up, and then she headed to the city (Minneapolis in her case, not the D) where she ended up getting a job as an Associate Producer (I’m an Assignment Editor), but that’s kinda close. Lou Grant is kinda like a Tim Dye…. and I’ve got spunk just like Mary. If you watched the show, you’d find this amusing.
Here’s to you Mary…
That's Willie! 